Talk:Signal of Solitude/@comment-76.21.76.97-20201207092555

Actually I took another fresh look at the lyrics, and it's possible to come to a different interpretation. The song uses the passive a lot, and of course in Japanese a lot of pronouns are elided (especially in songs) so the antecedents aren't clear. For instance in, "Kirawarete shimae," who is addressee (and is in turn the one that comes to hate the MC): it could either be random 3rd parties, or it could be the other party in the song ("kimi"). This changes the interpretation considerably.

Similarly, it's not clear if "omoishirasarete" is the MC telling herself that, or if it's other people telling the MC. The most crucial line of the song is "Aisareru hodo no ningen ja nai kamo": does the MC think she isn't the kind of person to love themselves or a person not deserving love?

Usually it'd be the latter, but the fact that "kirawareta atashi" is used previously in the song (and I'm pretty sure that she's referring to hating herself since otherwise "tsurakute irarenai" makes no sense).

With that said, here's an alternate interpretation of the lyrics. I do think this is closer to the "correct" meaning since it makes more logical sense (the previous translation seemed far too dark), and it fits with the theme of Hanayamata.

That "me" whom even I don't know That "me" is... crying Though I'm not supposed to be that weak, It’s because you silently listen to my stories, That my unbearable agony suddenly overflows.

No love [means] no life – though you whisper such things, I can't understand you

That I might end up making you hate me scares me. Because the fact that I've always been alone Is something I've come to realize For that "me" who hates herself so much, There exists no place of acceptance – Or so I say to myself To avoid the heart-rending pain

I even lack the time to envision nice, convenient dreams – Because my surroundings are never friendly. The only thing I could think was that this would be my norm But why are you so kind?

No dream [means] no life – That might be meaningless though: I don't understand. Do you?

Maybe I'm not the kind of person to love themselves That's why I will engrave "solitude" as my signal. A person who loves themselves should be able to climb the stairs of adulthood But for me, it's impossible – I can't climb them

This loneliness — fills my heart until the brink. Your smile — is especially dazzling

Maybe I'm not the kind of person to love themselves That's why I will engrave "solitude" as my signal. A person who loves themselves should be able to climb the stairs of adulthood But for me, it's impossible – I can't climb them

That's why...

That I might end up making you hate me scares me. Because the fact that I've always been alone Is something I've come to realize For that "me" who hates herself so much, There exists no place of acceptance – Or so I say to myself To avoid the heart-rending pain